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October 14, 2026 at 1:25:35 PM
[very long ramble incoming. Hello.☺️👋🏻 i have no clue if this all makes sense because i am sleepy as Hell but !!! #OhWell]
all of it is so insane to me….. honami saying that she feels guilty that she wasn’t there for saki more back in her hospital days in middle school and that making her so determined to help saki carry the weight of her pain in the present…. Shihochan….. her telling ichika literal seconds before overhearing saki that she truly believed they’d always come back together to persue that dream of performing on a big stage Together one day…..☹️ it’s the way she was speaking as if deep down she KNEWWW all along that things would turn out like this and how she feels stupid for getting her hopes up,,,<//3 oh my sweet sweet girl THIS IS HORRIBLE
i’m already seeing people reverting back to blaming shiho and hating on her too and it’s genuinely making me So Mad because. what do you mean you think shiho forced and guilt tripped everyone into joining the band in mainsto / resonating with you. you mean the event where all shiho did was tell the other girls that she didn’t want to push them past their limits or take away saki’s newfound freedom to be with her friends with the pressures of professionalism ?? Riiight ! she spent so much time at the start of their story making sure this exact scenario would be prevented so nobody would have to feel out of their depth simply for Her sake and Her dreams and yet🥲 despite everything it managed to happen one way or another… she’s so validated in her reaction and for yelling at ichika&saki i don’t care what anyone else says. and ur so right,, i’m glad they showed it that way too :’] i love leoni mainly for their relatability with the things i’ve experienced friendship wise and. Lordddd i can FEEL it😭 finding that sort of thing out after so long stings so bad i’m so worried for what shiho7 is going to give us😭
i think the detail that makes it hurt ten times more is that she found everything out by overhearing honasaki discussing it without her… like how in middle school she’d walk in on people talking behind her back whilst saying something completely different to her face, which was usually in relation to music and the light music club bands she was a part of😹😹😹 Okay!!!!😹 u think ur soooo fucking funny colopale Huh !
something else is how right away shiho mentions how she didn’t want saki to handle those feelings alone,, she’s still thinking about her wellbeing even after a huge bombshell like that was dropped upon her😭 she’s always been so so selfless and i feel like that’s something most people don’t take into consideration when talking about her. Sobs. ++ in don’t lose faith (i think. Um) when they were performing on stage shiho was thinking abt how it was all possible because all four of them were able to be direct and open with each other unlike how it was in the past and how That’d helped them grow in terms of musicality when that’s the complete opposite of what’s happened here and it’s so EUEUEUAGHHH. her being more bothered and hurt about saki concealing everything from her rather than anything else says sooo much in itself. its so Perfect yet so sickeningly horrible at the same time….. being both a saki and shiho oshi is not for the weak. saki basically being an extension of me in some ways and then shiho being basically the love of my life this is HELLLL!!!! make up and kiss right now what the fuck😭😭😭
anyways anyways ! enough of that ONE WEEK UNTIL NOIRBOU HBBBBB WOOHOOOOOO!!!!!!😊😊i’m so ready. tuxam you will be mine no matter what form you present yourself to us in.😊 (also mellchan miku expo date in less than a month hhhehehehhe. i’ve almost finished my styf rin ita bag too♪ i could explode from the excitement) i saw people saying that abt chaco Yeaahh… it was really weird to place that line about his future right at the end of the final episode of the arc LOL. if noirbou were to become the main focus again it’d definitely be related to chaco i think❓❓ which is good because chaco always means there’s a silly little duck following close behind. woohoo
uuueuuee that must suck So bad… my finals once happened all the way through the weeks surrounding my bday and it was so annoying because i basically couldn’t do Anything but study😭😭 i had my practical cooking exam just before the 9th of july and the preparation for it actually almost ended me. non stop baking to make sure i had the recipe perfected💔 praying for u oomfie..!.!! i hope all goes well hugs hugs
Replied on: October 15, 2026 at 2:01:30 PM
hello hi atabook is back up again yahoo yatta yippee.!!! i've been dealing with a severe case of procrastination my exam is Tomorrow and i haven't been able to focus.. .even worse i had coffee earlier and it made my mind go all over the place #WuhOh
if you put it like that oh my god it sounds So so cruel😢😢😢 the people thinking she's forcing & guilting the rest of leoni into joining the band / going pro is So funny and stupid to me because . it's literally the exact opposite case ? 😭😭 you can clearly tell when people are only caught up on the latest Angsty stuff & have no clue about anything else abt their story for them to say such 🥲 it's more than visible how shiho especially during the start of leoni's story didn't want to pressure / push them to their limits. and even with the way shiho reacted to finding out about how saki truly feels you'll Still see people misinterpreting early story shihochan.
eurufjjgfj it feels like betrayal(?) on shiho's end but at the end of the day you there's really no one to blame 🥲 if i was made to believe something like that for the longest time i'd feel like a fool too 😭😭 the parallel with middle school shiho actually Hurts what the hell ! alright ! 🩷AUEUFJKHjhhhhkhllh shiho in this event makes me wanna Sob. i swear i've been in a very similar situation before and it hurts my heart. shiho has always been so selfless from the very start i'm surprised as well that nobody really talks about that part of her 😭 seeing her put saki's feelings first even after Just finding out something so soul crushing . gwahajgkgk. someone give this girl a hug.
i've been thinking about this post i saw for a while and 😭😭😭 https://x.com/sh1h0s4k1/status/2109797973345370222 yeah. i think it's one of the things that's getting to me most. it's So painful and i fucking love it. just like u said, it's Perfect 😭😭😭😭 i get it a lot shihocchi..., i get it so bad
also yes.!!!!! 4-5 days left!!!!!! ^.^ ^.^ i may have done some damage to my noirbou funds so i'm back at 15k coins <\3 But it's still enough to probably complete the whole bag so we're good 👍🏼 and at the same time of the release, the streamer hb items become tradable & i've been deprived of exchange requests for a whole Week now 😢 i'm hoping to get a looot of new stuff by then.!! (i didn't realize it's So close already?!!/?/! 🥹🥹🥹 i hope u get to finish the ita bag very soon♪♪ id love to see it for myself hehehe)
exact same thoughts here 😭😭 i immediately did a side eye when he said it..i can Definitely smell a chaco focused arc right around the corner ! whenever i think about it aru Always comes to mindLmfpaspKfjf u caught me ......... more chaco content means more duck as well.. never separate the two ever ^_^
NOOOthat must've sucked 😭😭😭😭 the fact that it's Finals makes it worse <\\3 but i always like to think the break after finally having everything done & done So worth it. like a little birthday present or something :3c that's how it feels for me All the time 😭😭 (++++ HI good news also . i was supposed to have two exams tomorrow, with one of them being a Lot harder than the other since it's a major one. apparently the exams for said subject got cancelled.!! which leaves to only one minor exam tomorrow for me ^_^^_^ my prayers were answered at the last minute and i am Joyous..!!! bad news is i sort of neglected the Other subject and barely reviewed for it due to focusing on my major one 😭 but it's still a win.!!!! ＼(^o^)／ hoping everything Does go wellueeunddkfj;/;/;; thankie so much 🥹🥹🥹!!!!!!!!)
i think i remember seeing u have bsd in ur old rentry ^_^