see in my case i was never exactly “smart” in the first place so i suppose in a way i’m lucky enough to not have to mourn that part of me😭😭 the one time i found something i was actually kinda good at and could’ve maybe seen myself doing after i left school? my body suddenly decided to give up on me and my anxiety got 100x worse and i can’t speak to anyone aside from my mom anymore😊😊 seeing people i used to go to school with doing really cool things and getting their dream jobs or simply just having long term partners makes me want to end my shitttt ! the things i could’ve done with the correct accommodations and a better environment..💭💭 i’m so so proud of you regardless too. i’ll never get tired of telling you that.❤︎ no matter what you do / don’t achieve and the things you may struggle with now that you feel insecure about, just know that there’s always someone aaallll the way in the UK who loves you and is forever rooting for you despite all that🫂🦦 i used to see so many silly posts, or see new shiho content release and want to send it to u sooo badly but wasn’t able to so being able to send you as many posts as i want is the best thing ever☹️☹️ it was all worth it in the end… more rurifai leoni parallels. there’s a few lines shiho says about holding onto her pain and hopes for a reunion during middle school at the end of her 2nd focus event that are so Us 😭😭😭 i always have so many ideas in my head for so many different cute creative things. and when i finally decide it should be okay for me to get the things i need to do that? it turns out to be one huge mess💔 my brain isn’t very good at executing the ideas i have At All. i prefer digital collages and scrapbooking so much more because it’s way easier to delete failed attempts compared to if it were a physical book or smth,, hmmhmm i’d like that yes🥹🥹 i find a few things here and there every now and then but it’s So difficult to gather enough things to actually make something.. i would very much appreciate it if u could do that,,, :’3 (that’s so cool?-!/?- i love the movie version of glow So much,,🥹 i’ve heard other vocaloid songs while shopping in japanese stores before but never leoni :0 icchan wanted to say hello :3)

HIHI HELLO ILL REPLY TO UR OTHER MSGS IN A MINUTE BUT. I HAD A DELIVERY WHILE I WAS OUT AND LOOK WHAT WAS IN IT😭😭😭SHIHOCCHI’S KITTY OUTFIT😭 https://i.postimg.cc/QCQfQ9dK/IMG.jpg she’s so adorable and perfect…. there are tears in my eyes. underneath the ribbon there’s two little paws / hands too uuueueue

OH ACTUALLY before I forget. i wanted to immediately come here & tell you about this but there was no wifi at the place i was at But. earlier while eating at this japanese restaurant they were playing jp songs in the bg and guess what i heard. they were playing the movie ver of glow!!!!!!!!!!!!😭😭😭😭😭icchan 😭😭😭😭 i had to do a double take 😭😭 who would've thought id hear leoni in public on a random sunday... i would've missed out on it too if it weren't for my sister recognizing the song & pointing it out to me while i had headphones on full blast 😭

Yes😭😭😭😭like i know other people Do struggle too but it feels so hard when everyone else seems to just. Know.😭 especially when people ask you what plans you have for the future and you just. don’t Know.</3 careers conversations when i was in school were a NIGHTMARE🥲🥲 it makes sense to me don’t worry,,, everyone else is going off to uni or doing actual worthy things with their lives and i’m just. Here. Hi. i’m really glad you never stopped trying too🥹🥹 it’s the same with how i’ll always be glad that /i/ decided to pop into ur alterspring and send u the message that started all of this up again,, we definitely wouldn’t be where we are right now if those things never happened. (ᐡ ̥_ ̫ _ ̥ᐡ) there was always a part of me that never ever wanted to give up hope that we’d meet again and everything would eventually be okay in terms of our friendship and i’m So happy i held onto that hope.<3<3 Evil ruricchi…. i’m way too sensitive for these things😭 you are CRUEL!!!! i’ll get you back on Ur bday Trust😇 ruri bday And rurifai re-meeting anniversary in the same timeframe… heheheee… i actually saw something earlier that gave me big inspiration for a possibly of what to do for ur birthday so ! #Yay 🤫😊 plenty of time to perfect it too,,, butBut !! i’m excited for whatever u send for mine regardless ♪♪ it’s veeery nice to have someone going out of their way to do things like this for me❤︎ happy happy LMAOOO i was exactly the same😭 i felt bad using them for “non important” things so i’d always keep them incase a reaaaally special occasion that required stickers came up but. it Never came. scrapbooking sounds So fun too yes.. i’ve always wanted to do things like that as well but can’t for similar reasons to you🥹🥲 too many resources and things to buy, so little availability and money… guuuahqhh i’ve wanted to do a little digital scrapbook kinda thing for a while though ♪ i keep telling myself i’ll make cutesy shiho themed ones that also include little rambles “to her” but i just never end up doing it</3

(i Luv ur header ehehe…🦭🦦🦭🦦 rurifai !!!) like😭😭 the ages i’m turning are getting a bit Too serious now ! 😊😊😊 mentally i still feel about fourteen LOL,, my interests are mostly quite childish too which i think makes it worse. i don’t want to grow up💔💔 i feel so behind compared to everyone else around my age it’s Insane uuagahhh</3 we can be old together oomfie…🫂 i remember sending it and worrying So badly that you wouldn’t really care / notice it or that for some odd reason you’d suddenly not want to talk to me and🥹 seeing ur response to it made ME happy☹️☹️ that was also the first year after i left school and had cut off the only people i spoke to at that time so you replying genuinely made my day❤︎ you were always the only one who actively kept trying to reach out to me even if i wasn’t responding and that in itself is what made me feel inclined to send it, i think.🙃🫂 STOPP i get So deeply emotional when it comes to people taking the time to write me special messages on my birthday😭😭😭ruri you’ll KILL me😭 the msgs we exchanged for new years last year had me tearing up from joy uuuueue.. friendship is Great ! i think a new set of shumai plushies released recently Actually so maybe that’s why.. lots of little fluffy babies with different faces. i keep getting posts of them in cute outfits and stuff on my tl😭 https://x.com/i/status/2069638370251423925?s=46 shumai invasion!!!! i used to be like that too😭😭i had tons of sticker books & sheets that i never even used up until i was like 10,, (looking back i collected a lot of random things i had zero use for..) but i’ve seen people using small binders to store that specific style of sticker (i Think the official name is bonbondrop??) and wanted to do it myself.. my childhood self would be pleased ♪

ruriiii haihai Again ^__^ riiight after sending that last msg i had a package come and there’s a few things i think you’d like to see ♪ i’ve recently started collecting puffy stickers and decided to get a little book(?) to display them all in, and these are my first additions to said book🥹🥹 seals!!! Lots of seals!! https://i.postimg.cc/J0kd38mc/IMG.jpg ++ a new outfit for my big shiho plushie.. she looks like a princess😭 i’m not sure if i ever mentioned buying this one to u…🤔 (the little kitty outfit will be delivered in a week or so.. more cutesy shihocchi SOON !) https://i.postimg.cc/Bv7hdbvW/IMG.jpg andddd... the seal sylvanian families came earlier than planned!!! i have to wrap them until my bday so they’re trapped in their box for now… but it’s Us!!!! baby rurifais🦭🦦 https://i.postimg.cc/N0Z66HMG/IMG.png

i’m faiotter is more than happy just being beside ruricchi for now ^_^🦦🦦🦦 someday another lucky faiotter will pay you a visit… Trust… he’s so Obnoxious i’m gonna sob😭😭😭my Stupid idiot boyfriend😭 would it kill him to just stand normally for once. even in standees where he isn’t holding a flag or any other prop he’ll be stood in the most Dramatic poses ever lmaooo Five months,,,?!?!! SCARY😭🦭 i wish we could stop time and just be silly teenagers talking abt our interests and whatever else comes to mind forever&ever😢😢😢 that’ll also be about the one year anniversary of us starting to talk consistently again, Right?? i remember sending the main msg that started things up again juuust before ur bday,, and i think it /is/ the first time we’re celebrating my bday together yes,,🥹🥹 i think the only time was in 2024(?) where i sent u a strawpage msg just telling you it was my birthday.. but this is the first time we’re spending the day together while properly talking ♪ it’ll also be the same for ur bday when it comes around i think?? we first met in november-december 2023, i left that acc in march 2024 and then this is the first time we’ve connected like This again. that counts as another rurifai milestone methinks ^_^ Yaaaayyayaya fai will have to think of something special to celebrate ur bday with💭💭 two whole decades of ruricchi’s existence… i know i’ve said it so many times before but i’m so proud of you for getting this far ♡⸍ɞ̴̶̷ ⩊ ɞ̴̶̷⸌♡🦭🦦 https://x.com/i/status/2070071931181891613?s=46 🥹 https://x.com/i/status/2070330938870084047?s=46 us if. if we were magically transformed into two little fluffy shumais

we got very lucky with shiichan,,, there are some small joys that come with having a fav that isn’t the most popular ♪ thank U shihocchi a once in a lifetime faiotter ! 🦦🦦 that’s ur lucky otter.🍀🍀🍀 i still really really love how you always send me photos of the otters / seals&otters u see while shopping even if you don’t buy them🥹 it’s a sign that faiotter is watching over and is by your side always && forever ^_^ i think i remember you mentioning it to me along with twst back then💭💭 around the same time as that. spiritoomfs connected in our struggles with procrastination..!! (っ ̫ o̴̶̷̥᷅⸝⸝) very glad to know i’m not the only one uuuu that cover is so Cute..🥹 i used to see videos from sanrio puroland of the mascots dancing to it a lot & found the song silly so discovering the cover was veeery fun. the songs i like the most atm are hakanaki shinzo no mobius (the lyrics especially i love) && amur resonance ! bubble is also another one that i think sounds good.. ur guy!!!! nagaki hitomi no sirius is a rlly nice song too yesyes🥹 somehow i hadn’t listened to that one until now,,, Whoa i’ve noticed that a lot of the songs you mention / recommend to me seem to have a softer sort of sound to them💭 Hmmm kasakun and his flag😭😭 it’s like shiho and her bass. do not separate them under any circumstances or he will EXPLODE!!! it makes me laugh seeing all of the normal sized standees and then here comes tenma tsukasa with his gigantic flag taking up an unnecessary amount of space❤️❤️ imagine like. a cute little bunny themed cupcake.. green frosting with bunny ears poking out of the top… shihopyon cupcake plushie🐰🧁 fai bday in two weeks😭😭guuuauauqhwggh😭😭😭 the idea that i’ll be Twenty next year terrifies me. what the Hell!!!!! i’m going to be baking my own cake again this year and i’m Very excited to test out the idea i have in mind though,,,🥹

https://x.com/i/status/2070123171295252964 the flag is glued to his hands i think

character tax KILLS me… i’ve wanted to start collecting tsukasa merch for ages now but dear God some items cost Double or even more than they would if it were shiho,,, for the little movie plushies specifically, i got shihos for £29(with the can badge in a set!!!!) and tsukasas plushie alone is almost £65. Horrific. i once tried to order a few momonga plushies but the shipping + added customs fees were almost four times as much as the original cost😭 may we both be blessed by coming across surprisingly decent priced plushies of Alll our favs… and a Million faiotters…. don’t lose faith ruri ! (/ ；ࠔ；\) i was considering looking deeper into it last night Actually🥹🥹💭 i looove sanrio and i think the general concept of frmm is interesting so..!!.!! if i can gather the motivation to read through stuff i’ll definitely do that ♪ (i have a gigantic list of different things that i rlly want to get more knowledge on but i just Cannot seem to find the energy to do it uhqhwhebw💔💔 somehow procrastinating things i’m genuinely interested in…. fai’s brain is #Confusing.) ((i’m sloooowly getting over my mind block when it comes to catching up on leoni stories though. yaaay :3 i’ve been stuck to only being able to read shiho focuses and shiho dialogue for the last few years.. slowly slowly breaking free)) i specifically want to know more about merold and romarriche(?). i like the look of those two ^_^ i’d definitely loooove to know more abt ur favs too ♪ i Have listened to the songs on spotify & have a few that i like though so i’m basically a quarter way there,,, Almost,,🥹 +++ https://x.com/i/status/2070147703670210829?s=46 Look at these😭😭😭😭 chinese exclusive bday merch… THE PLUSHIES😭😭i’m so insanely jealous and mad that i’ll probably never be able to get them because the hona apple pie one is so adorable😭 imagine what shiho wld look like…. Uuuueeh i’m glad it made you smile ૮꒰ྀི∩´ ᵕ `∩꒱ྀིა i saw it come up on my feed and thought of us right away🦭🦦💝 hugs hugs hugs https://x.com/i/status/2070134815081591213?s=46 kafka kafka kafka

https://pin.it/3edqNFNDH ´ω`)っ ´ω`)っ

exactlyyyy😭😭😭they get mad at people opposing them by saying “it’s only fiction” and “it’s not real” and refuse to see sense when someone who’s Actually experiencing those things tells them that they’re being offensive and just call them sensitive or dramatic instead🥲 people don’t care at all unless it directly affects them and it makes me so Mad faiotter will make her way home to you someday, one way or another.🦦 manifesting that one day you’ll be suddenly blessed with a very cute and good priced otter plushie… i Never see any sort of bandori merch in person that’s so cool😭😭 also?1?? that’s So much for a small keychain Wtf,, i once saw the little prsk movie rubber keychain thingies in a store and they were like. £8.50 each </3 Horribly overpriced for such a small thing.. it’s basically the same price as a Whole entire meal from most fast food places here. for a small keychain.🥲 if you Dare to like japanese based games or anything similar when u live outside of japan you will be forever cursed with absolutely diabolical pricing and even worse shipping fees if u order online.💥💥 ooohhh,,, going off of basic details they seem like a good match💭💭 (also i’m giggling why does he seem like another somewhat fai coded character😭 faifai taking over the world one character at a time !) ((look who came up on my tl not long after reading ur msg,,, https://x.com/i/status/2069813456971428190?s=46 !!)

https://x.com/i/status/2069763329980305679?s=46 look at how cute omg🥹🥹 the little shiho plushie….

(Sobbing. i wrote this entire msg and then accidentally refreshed my page so it deleted itself and i didn’t have it copied at the time so i had to rewrite the Whole thing🥲🥲) yes😭😭😭 it’s alwaysss irked me how people treat mafuyu and her mental state uaugagagahhh,,, would they go up to a depressed person irl and tell them that they’ve been depressed for too long?? or that she’s “too negative and miserable??😭 it’s so Stupid i don’t see how hard it is for them to Not talk on a subject unless they actually know what they’re saying,, just spitting out total bullshit!!!! i looove those pokèmon figures,,, the style makes them look so Silly and bug eyed😭😭 i want the mimikyu one SO badly.. waauauqhwh?2?1? that first otter is SO cute🥹🥹🥹 and the pinkish one?1!2? that’s fai. faiotter irl… i magically teleported over to ur country to say hai while u were shopping ♪ (i seem to find that small keychains or plushies in japanese merch / anime stores seem to be so insanely overpriced and it’s so annoying💔 i have one near me and i see so many cute things but i Cannot justify paying so much for something so little😭 and you can’t buy them online bc of shipping fees.. TERRIBLE!!!!) i do the same hehe…🦭🦦 it’s good that both of Our animals are both marine animals because they’re very often paired together when it comes to plushies and stuff ^_^ (alsooo…. faifai got a refund for a concert ticket i sold a while back the other day and was able to buy myself a few bday gifts.. && guess who now has the seal sylvanian families on the way🥹 the same ones as in that img!!!!! they will be set up riiight beside my otter family ૮꒰ྀི∩´ ᵕ `∩꒱ྀིა) yeahhh🙃 i have a general idea on his personality and stuff from google + what i’ve seen other people talking abt and. another fai coded character it seems💭💭 i liked wish me mell for a while before discovering him too so it fits perfectly!! (that artstyle is So pretty omg🥹🥹thank U,,) 500 msgs Whoa… so many rurifai milestones lately..🦭💝🦦 first 8 months since we started talking again and now 500 consistent msgs.. we’re doing so well!!!!

i just noticed we're at 500 msgs now ･｡ᐠ( ᐢ ᵕ ᐢ )ᐟ｡･ halfway to 1k ..!!!!