that’s so Cute waaa?2🥹🥹 the purpose keychain… the merolds… the little stars all over it… it’s the cutest bag ever what theHELL. and hello faiotter…. !!! i looove how it’s tucked away in the little pouch😭😭thank U for making me all safe and comfy in there😭🦦 i hope she has lots of fun being with you ♪ i always wanted a bag like that with tons of keychains and decor on it when i was in school but i was way too scared of things falling off or something to ever do it ,, </3 i once had a really cute shiny eevee badge on my bag that i loved sooo much and someone ripped it off after two days while i was stood in the lunch line😇😇 my seventeen year old ass went right to the bathroom and Sobbed😭 if i saw you in public with that i’d think you were Sooo cool…. it’s very pretty !!!!! 🦦💝🦭 my tiny pink ruriseal plush keychain is attached to my little bag too ^_^ we’re both going on lots of adventures together !! ++ i hope all ur classes go / went smoothly (˶ᵔᗜᵔ˶)ﾉﾞ

🥹🩷 hellohellooeueueu classes today..., i shall reply once i'm free!!!!! ( ◜‿◝ )👍🏼 Buut the thing i wanted to show u ^_^ i finally have a really pretty school bag..yay... there's a bunch of accessories n stuff & thought. why don't i bring faiotter along.. !!! https://64.media.tumblr.com/5f66d4abf8a5a9dfe374d8171384f8b4/05cd355528c3a197-33/s2048x3072/ae8e8814742662c6d906401536b177edb5893a34.jpg there she is :3c 🦦🦦 now u're with me wherever i go !!!! (the actual bag of u're curious as to how it looks.. https://64.media.tumblr.com/3140dfcf17cf933236ef231993a3e8e2/05cd355528c3a197-1f/s2048x3072/5da3cd7894dbd88c162847f54d3aabfee2e52260.jpg ^0^ pretty pink :3)

something as small as realising that if i had actually went through with it when i first planned to, i would never have gotten to discover shiho, or penny, or even /You/ is enough to give me a bit of drive to carry on😭 who is fai without penny and shiho. NOBODY!!!! knowing My luck i’d end it and they’d suddenly come out with a cute pink adorable pigtails shiho lim LMFAOO that #cannot happen ever i’ve waited too long for her i fear i also think it’s quite funny because every single time i get into a mindset where those thoughts get Extremely overwhelming, Without fail, i somehow always manage to see or hear something vaguely associated with shiho that makes me smile again😭 tiny stupid things like that are oddly enough to make me reconsider,,, (the strangest one was how this one time, before her mozaik role alt, (which is something i’d wanted so badly since the cover was announced,,) i silently begged in my head for something to keep me going and then Minutes later opened twt, and scrolled down to see an ad for something with the word mozaik in it. with the /exact/ spelling. and then shiho got her alt a month or two later.☺️ these little things also sometimes line up closely with what i write “to shiho” in my journal,, shiichan sending signs !) i definitely will T__T looking back and seeing how far we’ve come & all of the things you’ve said and helped me with overtime makes me So Happy😢 thank you thank you☹️🥹 i’ll keep all of that in mind if i start to feel this way again. having you say all of this over and over again comforts me so much, never forget that.❤︎ i don’t want to be the same person i was a few years back when faced with slight difficulties like this, you’re So worth the effort and every interaction of ours just proves that even more. i’m glad i have the strength to push through it all this time around, even if sometimes it’s hard to realise that. you just always seem to know Exactly what to say and how to say it and that never fails to amaze me,, are you inside my brain or something,, instead of brainworms it’s brainSeals,,,,❓🦭 i’m glad that my timing with it was good??🥹 we keep doing stuff like that❓❓timing our msgs right when the other needs them,, i’m Also glad to know that i’ve made an impact on you too (๑⃙⃘´༥`๑⃙⃘) no matter what happens or how difficult things may get i don’t want to give up on you. Ever. i cherish us and our friendship too much to even Think about doing that🫂 faiotter will be by your side always & through everything you deserve all of the care i give you and so much more !! <3 knowing that i can do that for you makes me smile sooo much… it’s all i ever wanted too💝 https://x.com/i/status/2080387432990511283?s=46 this is Us.🍎🍎 (ever since you sent the little chiikawa hachiware doodle thingy ages ago, everytime i see posts about them i think of us😭Help😭😭 another variant of rurifai..)

hihihi fai 🥹🩷 it's really nice to hear you're doing better now as well, im gladdd!!! :'3 i know that it can be really hard to stay "positive" when life loves to beat you up, but even if it's somewhat more on you just Accepting it, it's nice to know that you still try to look at the bright side even when it seems like a blur or nonexistent. it takes soo much strength to still hold onto a life that you feel isn't worth living, and yet you're still here despite that, despite feeling like it's never going to get better. i hope life can be more kind to you & allow you all these things that make you happy to stay longer. 🫂🩷 and i hope that i & all the good things in your life can somehow make it worth staying, worth holding on, and make you believe that despite i all, it can get better even if it feels so out of reach 🫂 (++ the thing I wanted to show you..!!!! I sadly wasn't able to set it up / take a photo today..something somewhat related to school & i thought it had classes today #Wrong. i wake up earlyyyy tomorrow so ^_^ yay ^_^ 🦦🦦🦦) in response to ur msg🥹🥹 even if you say everything a hundred times over and over it'll never fail to make me happy to hear ☹️ i'm very happy that my words are able to ease your mind especially in times like these :' 🩷🩷 it's hard for me to express my thoughts fully & properly, so knowing they still help you like this means the world ☹️☹️ i hope you'll continue to look back at my msgs, our convos. even if it'll take some time, i do not mind waiting for you. i can't imagine how scary it feels to have to open up like that, so i understand if you'll need more time to slowly make your progress. i'll be here all the way 🫂🦦🦭 i hope you know you're allowed to give yourself some space whenever you need it—if things get too overwhelming, take your time to properly breathe. again, I'll wait for as long as i have to & I'll be here when you're ready. you don't have to push yourself if it gets too much for you to bear. ☹️ whenever you need to take a step back, no matter how frequent, please do so!! it won't ever be a burden to me at all. i'll want you to feel as comfortable as possible, and hope that you don't hesitate to do what you think is best for you in times like that :' i Will be okay, and i Will wait for you. 🩷 aaaheudhdh ur timing with this msg is really nice actually :' 🩷🩷 I hope you know that You've made such an impact on me as well 🫂 it's hard to find someone who's unwilling to give up on me, on us so easily even when faced with sooo many obstacles ☹️☹️ it just shows how much you care & treasure our friendship and whenever I think about it it makes me so happy. i want to keep doing my best to make sure you don't have to worry as much as you used to :' again, im so glad that my words are able to help ease your mind. it's one of the things i've always wanted to do🫂🩷 and that's honestly more than enough to me—you don't ever have to thank me for anything no noueuejfj!!!!🥹 i'm just so glad to be able to help you this way. thank you so much for being /my/ friend as well. i wouldn't have wanted it any other way.

heyheyy🥹🥹 i’m glad to hear that ur feeling better now !! you didn’t take too long At All, don’t worry🫂 (don’t feel like you need to send a perfect response to my msg either aaa :’3 i just needed to get that off of my chest at the time.) i’m doing. Good,,, ?ish?! like a middle ground kinda. Pleasantly existing. i think it’s gotten to the point where i’m slowly learning to accept that i’ll never fully be “okay” and that i just have to cherish the little moments of happiness and joy i get every now and then for as long as possible.🙃 but i Am feeling better than i was !! thank you hinomori shiho kono manma de ikou alt vocal and merold ever red solo cover i owe you my life (++ i went through some of the posts from that account u sent with the little sirotan & otter plushie photos and they’re so cute🥹🥹 that’s us!!!) (i’m alsoo excited to see whatever it is that you’ve been wanting to show me… ehe)

i also have this small thing to show u tmrw ^_^ 🦦🦦🦦 it's nothing big but i've been wanting to show it to you for a while hehehe :]

ruricchi update:' i'm so sorry i took so much time but i'm feeling better than i was ^_^ i want to reply to your message when my head is clearer so i can word out a better response, but i've read everything & reading it all made me so, so happy 🫂🩷 it means a lot, so so much. ☹️ i hope to give a better reply tomorrow for everything guuhhuhhjj i really want to.!!! i love you lots, and i hope things are getting better on your end :' 🦦🦭 ruriseal is always thinking of you!!!

👋🏻👋🏻i wanted to say something while my thoughts were a bit more coherent,, lots to say yet not enough words to express it </3 sometimes i feel like a broken record when trying to word things like this i love u so so much too and i’m so very grateful for all of your words and stuff.❤︎ keeping everything you’ve said in mind and reading back through it made things feel noticeably lighter (つ ω ˋ ｡ ) i hope you know that :’) every single thing you say to me just solidifies even more that this is All worth it and that even when i’m not feeling okay or having doubts(?), running away or acting hostile isn’t the way to handle things and that it’s Okay to allow myself to not put up a front all of the time around you🙃 thank you for slowly helping me to feel more and more comfortable enough to do that. it feels so very rare to find someone like you in this day and age and i’ll Never ever be able to express just how special i think you are for that exact reason☹️☹️ overtime my attachment issues usually tend to merge with some form of avoidance in the sense that my feelings become so overwhelming that all i want to do is distance myself because it’s affecting me so negatively (which is one of the Many reasons why i’ve been feeling so low lately,,) but. for some reason even when that’s happening, i want to keep fighting when it’s with you. i want to keep trying to find other ways to manage my feelings so i can overcome them and not let them get in the way of things, like they did before. that’s not something that usually happens with me, and i know that it’s all down to you and how patient & understanding you’ve always been with me.. despite everything that’s happened and all we’ve been through, not once have you even Thought of giving up on me. even when we weren’t talking. i’ve said it so many times before but even that isn’t enough to properly convey how appreciative i am. i’d thank you every second of every day if it were possible (/ ；ࠔ；\) i don’t know What i’m aiming for by saying this but i suppose i just?? want you to know that your efforts are very appreciated by me and Do make an impact?? even the ones from months or years ago.🫂 (again. something i’ve said more than once in the past😭) even if you might think that it’s something small or not “enough”, it is to /me/, and it always will be. i can only hope to do the same for you, too. again, i love you sooo very much, and will always be grateful to know you and be your friend. i hope you feel better soon, i’ll be thinking about you until we’re Both feeling okay again.❤︎❤︎ i’m always here if ever

hi🥲🥲 that’s okay, i completely understand.🫂 take care of yourself for me, i love you so much too❤︎ feel free to take as much time as you need, i’ll be fine

u're always free to reach out whenever, pls remember that !! ^_^ i love you sooo much & i know things aren't the best on your end, so i want to still be here despite how i'm feeling. don't ever let that make you hesitate to come to me :' i'll always be more than glad to talk if you want to say anything 🫂🩷

hi faifai 🥹 I think i'll be away for the time being! some things happened and i don't entirely feel the best. i'll still be within reach if you ever need anything, i can assure you i do not mind it at all :' 🩷🩷 I'll still be here regardless, okay 🫂🦦 i'll be waiting for you

faifai omg 😭🥹 i stumbled upon this acc & https://x.com/i/status/2079515511847875046 sirotannn 🥹 they even post some plushie photos too !! https://x.com/i/status/2069688190274072598 https://x.com/i/status/2073323633750237582 us ♪

https://x.com/i/status/2079626552392708595 omg waaaaa i mentioned having a sylvanian families collection before right ! ! the bunny on the first img was my very first one^_^ her name was chocolate :]

checking in ^_^ i'll be here waiting for you 🩷🫂 I hope things are getting better on your end:' i noticed your acc is deactivated & was hoping u're doing alright. i love you soo much, keep doing what ever you need to make urself feel better thinking about u lots ^_^

yikes i have horrible timing Hello😭😭 i can’t think of the words to respond at the moment but thank you</3 it means a lot hearing you say all of that, really