i’ve just seen ur post, that’s completely fine don’t worry🥲🫂 please take as much time as you need, i’ll still be here regardless. thank you for letting me know, take care and i hope you feel better soon.❤︎

hihi responding to one or two parts of ur other msg because i completely Forgot i drafted something before bed last night until like two minutes ago. Yay (i’m glad that seeing the msg again made you happy whaaaueeuhegdh☹️☹️ the way you’ve always valued my presence ever since the start of our friendship never fails to make me smile so hard ueuegegh☹️ biglove ruricchi…..) it’s definitely ok if you want to make posts as a way of communicating rather than directly sending them here, i don’t mind either way..!! i still see it all regardless🥹 aaand linking anything you see that you want to show me is Great too yes yes of course. as always i’ll be doing the same if i come across anything♪ just being able to talk to you in any way whatsoever is enough for me.🫂 and that sounds about right yeaaah…. i’m pretty sure i opened my account publicly on november 27th and it took me a little bit to interact w you for the first time so. december 7th sounds close^^🥹 i am so so proud of us ruricchi,, i definitely want to celebrate that day together somehow too. ^^💝 who would’ve known back then that we would still be here talking this far on,,, anyways. i wanted to share that i managed to finally get hallritt’s hair in hkdv..!.!.!🥹🥹 i have every frmm outfit and hair aside from puruth’s hair now and i’m very happy about it. isn’t he just the cutest.. https://i.postimg.cc/g0vQZJ3k/IMG.jpg i don’t speak abt him a lot but i reaaaallyyy really like hallritt ^_^ also because i wasn’t in the right mindset to ask when it released… what did you think of the aruchaco duet ?? :3 :3 i was very excited to see what you thought about everything from the day it was announced actually😭 i have a feeling that ruri’s song looping habits May have made a comeback with this one. just a suspicion. 💭💭💭

https://x.com/pon_prsk66/status/2118911548622344510?s=46 🐰🐰

https://x.com/hu5w72/status/2119039603894346076?a=bWemq7z-ywYSiuuwcDE&s=19 the 🐸🐧lings

i have no idea what to say that i haven’t said a hundred times already but just know that reading through everything made me smile so hard☹️☹️ i appreciate you and everything you do for me so dearly. i hope that for future reference, i can use this as a reassurance that speaking my mind is okay ?? nothing went wrong like my brain told me it would and everything is still okay and that makes me feel really relieved. i want to keep working towards fully believing these things you tell me one day, even if it takes way longer than i’d like it to. and i want You to feel the same with me too, ok??❤︎ i will always be here and will never ever want you to deal with anything alone if i can help in any way. and i’ll happily wait for as long as it may take for you to reach that point. we’ll keep building that trust within each other for as long as possible, that’s something i can say and believe without a doubt. honestly i feel better already anyways😭 i just have to keep trying to train myself into Not acting on the thoughts and ideas i have during the short ‘episodes’(??) i have where small things trigger me is all. it all seems so incredibly ridiculous to me Now uususwjwhwj but i guess it’s a mixture of Two things ?? kind of. i was looking back at my old phone and stumbled across things from when you and i weren’t talking and we were going at each others throats every now and then aaand some of the things i saw made me feel really shitty basically. it’s obviously a little bit more complex than that But i don’t really like thinking about those things too much. basically i did it to myself ! Again ! along with . Something else that i somehow found myself looking through which i don’t feel like mentioning but it heavily ties into the point above so im counting it all as one thing ;’]. but i don’t really care about any of it Now so. oh well. november and march are terrible months for stuff like this because of them holding the two anniversaries of me Meeting everyone online and then quitting for the first time in march</3 the only positive is that it soon marks three years since our first interaction. Wow i will be fine eventually, i know that, my mood swings have just been strangely intense and frequent lately because of other things going on and that’s really impacting my ability to think properly,, again i’m sorry to take it out on You, i can’t say that enough </3 just getting everything off of my chest without holding back as much as usual, even just this once is enough to make me feel less anxious?? i hope you know that🥲 i used to think that talking about the things on my mind would do nothing but make me feel worse but it’s surprisingly nicer and more relieving than i thought. thank you for slowly giving me the courage to do that :’] now that i think about it all with a somewhat clearer head i don’t want to just. leave and loose all of the progress that we’ve made so far, because that doesn’t feel Right. i think i might see if stepping back a little bit helps me at all ?? at least just for a short while. that’s certainly better than cutting everything off without thinking things through in my head, because i know i’d regret it soon enough and i’d rather make a choice that has a much simpler resolution. i love you and our friendship too much to do that and i feel stupid for even considering it, even if i wasn’t in the right headspace at the time. and i think generally that’s easier because there isn’t That much we can have consistent deep conversations about lately is there??😭 so sticking to smaller doses rather than sending really long messages every single day just for the sake of keeping contact might be easier in the long run.. less change of things feeling overwhelming in the future that way. and i really do want to hold onto what we have now for as long as possible🥲🥲🫂 (also while i’m here.. https://i.postimg.cc/Yqkdg4Lt/IMG.jpg i went shopping today with tuxam and look🥹 we found. an Otter… and then i got a cute kittysama seal figure from a gachapon machine right after which is the one i wanted the most… ((for that specific machine, i only put enough tokens in for One little figure but i somehow got two ??! and the seal was the 2nd to roll out🥹 how strange is that…. the luck of ruriseal was on my side today..)) seals and otters are somehow always close together no matter what🦭🦦 the melody plush was super cute too i had to show you… pink cute things always remind me of You because i know you love them💝)

☹️🩷 please take all the time you need! no pressure to properly respond either, you always get your message across as well & again i'm very happy to know that we're still here talking like this. That means the world to me :,) i appreciate you so so so so much more than you'll everrrr know. i came here to say that i am here to stay, no matter what choice you'll make. i'll always be within sight even if we may ever have to go out separate ways. the door will always be open for whenever you're ready to walk this road alongside me again. i'll be here all the way. you won't have to lose sight of me & we can always try to work things out as long as you're comfortable enough & as long as you'll allow me to hold your hand. i love you so much, and i will be waiting ʕ´• ᴥ•̥`ʔ 🩷🦦🦭

just wanted to say that i’ve read ur reply, and it all means so much to me :’] i truly can’t ever thank you enough for everything. i’ll attempt to respond properly when i’ve slept and my head is hopefully a bit clearer, i don’t want it to sound halfhearted or anything☹️🫂 (& you worded things perfectly, don’t worry about that at all🥲 love love you forever)

rentry.co/sealotterfriendship 🩷 my words are all over the place, so i hope i'm able to express everything properly ueuejejddj you got your words across, i assure you 🫂 please don't worry about me i'm sorry that you're hurting like this, and i understand that you did what felt safest. i won't ever hold that against you at all. thank you for taking the time to write all of this, even if it's something that scares you to do. thank you for being here & still holding on. it means more than anything & i'll forever be grateful for what we have. i hope to find a better way through this if it's possible :,)

rentry.co/1103722100 i put everything into a rentry, i’m sorry it’s so long and i’m sorry it all came on so suddenly. i wrote this in the early hours of the morning with little sleep so it might not sound coherent or well put together, just as a warning. deep down i at least know that i don’t want to make the same mistakes as i did back then by leaving without a trace, not after we’ve been through so much, so i tried my best to explain things more than just on a surface level. thank you for always being there for me and again i’m really sorry for worrying and hurting you

if you need time to be away for a bit, or space or anything, i will give you that ! there's no pressure in that at all & i'll be happy with what you'll have to do. but this is a very different case :' i wish we could at least talk about it before anything. i know it's nothing compared to what you're feeling, but it's undeniably hurting me as well

🥲 please reach out

what ever that is, it's affecting you this badly (& to an extent, our friendship too) and i hope you know that it Is an option to come to me and talk about it, what ever it is, what ever it concerns :' 🫂 running away will and Does feel like the best and safest option. but i'm too stubborn to simply let you walk away just like that as if our friendship meant nothing at all. and i'm sure you're stubborn as well, right? you've pushed all those thoughts aside countless times as much as they kept coming back, and because of that, we've come this far, and i wish to keep on doing this with you—to keep walking further, together. (though if this is what i think it is about ..☹️🫂 i'd love to talk about it with you. i promise it's not stupid, what ever thoughts might be circling around your head because of it. you've talked about a lot of things to me, about your feelings before, and i did not flinch, nor will i do so again this time. please let it all out if you're comfortable with doing so. i don't care how many paragraphs will i have to read, or if i have to piece things together bit by bit. i want to work things out what ever they may be 🥲)

hello i am going to ignore the part where you said Not to reach out because unfortunately for you i value our friendship too much to just Do That ! i think that this thing that's been bothering you is something far more serious that you make it out to be & i really really Really wish to understand what is going on 🥲 i don't want you to think that running away from what ever this is is the best & maybe the only option you'll have. time & time again i've said that you can always come to me if there's anything bothering you & i am very sure that there Is something i don't care how heavy the load is, it's burdening you this much & i Want to help you carry it no matter the cost. *please* reach out soon, i will be waiting. i am not going to leave you like this 🥲🩷🫂

hi ruriiii🥹🥹 i’m Okay🥹 i think i’m doing slightly better than i was yesyes… i’ve luckily had a lot of things on hand to keep my mind busy this time so all is well. (๑⃙⃘´༥`๑⃙⃘) don’t worry about not being able to do much to help me, Ok??☹️🫂 i know i say it a lot but just the words and reassurance that you’ll always have my back whenever i may need it is more than enough in the moment. the specific thing that has been bothering me is Waay too complicated and long term to explain in a single message anyways so,,, it’s okay!!!🥲 i’ll get through it ♪ i hope everything is okay on your end too, i’m aaalways thinking of u even when i’m not around.❤︎ sending lots of hugs (sea otter…. So Cute🥹 that’s mell. Me)

https://x.com/nerdyverz/status/2116754561956253983?a=nKa1vDZ30z9_jb5oSbw&s=19 cutieieuryrgf🦦🦦🩷🩷