hihihi fai 🥹🩷 it's really nice to hear you're doing better now as well, im gladdd!!! :'3 i know that it can be really hard to stay "positive" when life loves to beat you up, but even if it's somewhat more on you just Accepting it, it's nice to know that you still try to look at the bright side even when it seems like a blur or nonexistent. it takes soo much strength to still hold onto a life that you feel isn't worth living, and yet you're still here despite that, despite feeling like it's never going to get better. i hope life can be more kind to you & allow you all these things that make you happy to stay longer. 🫂🩷 and i hope that i & all the good things in your life can somehow make it worth staying, worth holding on, and make you believe that despite i all, it can get better even if it feels so out of reach 🫂 (++ the thing I wanted to show you..!!!! I sadly wasn't able to set it up / take a photo today..something somewhat related to school & i thought it had classes today #Wrong. i wake up earlyyyy tomorrow so ^_^ yay ^_^ 🦦🦦🦦) in response to ur msg🥹🥹 even if you say everything a hundred times over and over it'll never fail to make me happy to hear ☹️ i'm very happy that my words are able to ease your mind especially in times like these :' 🩷🩷 it's hard for me to express my thoughts fully & properly, so knowing they still help you like this means the world ☹️☹️ i hope you'll continue to look back at my msgs, our convos. even if it'll take some time, i do not mind waiting for you. i can't imagine how scary it feels to have to open up like that, so i understand if you'll need more time to slowly make your progress. i'll be here all the way 🫂🦦🦭 i hope you know you're allowed to give yourself some space whenever you need it—if things get too overwhelming, take your time to properly breathe. again, I'll wait for as long as i have to & I'll be here when you're ready. you don't have to push yourself if it gets too much for you to bear. ☹️ whenever you need to take a step back, no matter how frequent, please do so!! it won't ever be a burden to me at all. i'll want you to feel as comfortable as possible, and hope that you don't hesitate to do what you think is best for you in times like that :' i Will be okay, and i Will wait for you. 🩷 aaaheudhdh ur timing with this msg is really nice actually :' 🩷🩷 I hope you know that You've made such an impact on me as well 🫂 it's hard to find someone who's unwilling to give up on me, on us so easily even when faced with sooo many obstacles ☹️☹️ it just shows how much you care & treasure our friendship and whenever I think about it it makes me so happy. i want to keep doing my best to make sure you don't have to worry as much as you used to :' again, im so glad that my words are able to help ease your mind. it's one of the things i've always wanted to do🫂🩷 and that's honestly more than enough to me—you don't ever have to thank me for anything no noueuejfj!!!!🥹 i'm just so glad to be able to help you this way. thank you so much for being /my/ friend as well. i wouldn't have wanted it any other way.

heyheyy🥹🥹 i’m glad to hear that ur feeling better now !! you didn’t take too long At All, don’t worry🫂 (don’t feel like you need to send a perfect response to my msg either aaa :’3 i just needed to get that off of my chest at the time.) i’m doing. Good,,, ?ish?! like a middle ground kinda. Pleasantly existing. i think it’s gotten to the point where i’m slowly learning to accept that i’ll never fully be “okay” and that i just have to cherish the little moments of happiness and joy i get every now and then for as long as possible.🙃 but i Am feeling better than i was !! thank you hinomori shiho kono manma de ikou alt vocal and merold ever red solo cover i owe you my life (++ i went through some of the posts from that account u sent with the little sirotan & otter plushie photos and they’re so cute🥹🥹 that’s us!!!) (i’m alsoo excited to see whatever it is that you’ve been wanting to show me… ehe)

i also have this small thing to show u tmrw ^_^ 🦦🦦🦦 it's nothing big but i've been wanting to show it to you for a while hehehe :]

ruricchi update:' i'm so sorry i took so much time but i'm feeling better than i was ^_^ i want to reply to your message when my head is clearer so i can word out a better response, but i've read everything & reading it all made me so, so happy 🫂🩷 it means a lot, so so much. ☹️ i hope to give a better reply tomorrow for everything guuhhuhhjj i really want to.!!! i love you lots, and i hope things are getting better on your end :' 🦦🦭 ruriseal is always thinking of you!!!

👋🏻👋🏻i wanted to say something while my thoughts were a bit more coherent,, lots to say yet not enough words to express it </3 sometimes i feel like a broken record when trying to word things like this i love u so so much too and i’m so very grateful for all of your words and stuff.❤︎ keeping everything you’ve said in mind and reading back through it made things feel noticeably lighter (つ ω ˋ ｡ ) i hope you know that :’) every single thing you say to me just solidifies even more that this is All worth it and that even when i’m not feeling okay or having doubts(?), running away or acting hostile isn’t the way to handle things and that it’s Okay to allow myself to not put up a front all of the time around you🙃 thank you for slowly helping me to feel more and more comfortable enough to do that. it feels so very rare to find someone like you in this day and age and i’ll Never ever be able to express just how special i think you are for that exact reason☹️☹️ overtime my attachment issues usually tend to merge with some form of avoidance in the sense that my feelings become so overwhelming that all i want to do is distance myself because it’s affecting me so negatively (which is one of the Many reasons why i’ve been feeling so low lately,,) but. for some reason even when that’s happening, i want to keep fighting when it’s with you. i want to keep trying to find other ways to manage my feelings so i can overcome them and not let them get in the way of things, like they did before. that’s not something that usually happens with me, and i know that it’s all down to you and how patient & understanding you’ve always been with me.. despite everything that’s happened and all we’ve been through, not once have you even Thought of giving up on me. even when we weren’t talking. i’ve said it so many times before but even that isn’t enough to properly convey how appreciative i am. i’d thank you every second of every day if it were possible (/ ；ࠔ；\) i don’t know What i’m aiming for by saying this but i suppose i just?? want you to know that your efforts are very appreciated by me and Do make an impact?? even the ones from months or years ago.🫂 (again. something i’ve said more than once in the past😭) even if you might think that it’s something small or not “enough”, it is to /me/, and it always will be. i can only hope to do the same for you, too. again, i love you sooo very much, and will always be grateful to know you and be your friend. i hope you feel better soon, i’ll be thinking about you until we’re Both feeling okay again.❤︎❤︎ i’m always here if ever

hi🥲🥲 that’s okay, i completely understand.🫂 take care of yourself for me, i love you so much too❤︎ feel free to take as much time as you need, i’ll be fine

u're always free to reach out whenever, pls remember that !! ^_^ i love you sooo much & i know things aren't the best on your end, so i want to still be here despite how i'm feeling. don't ever let that make you hesitate to come to me :' i'll always be more than glad to talk if you want to say anything 🫂🩷

hi faifai 🥹 I think i'll be away for the time being! some things happened and i don't entirely feel the best. i'll still be within reach if you ever need anything, i can assure you i do not mind it at all :' 🩷🩷 I'll still be here regardless, okay 🫂🦦 i'll be waiting for you

faifai omg 😭🥹 i stumbled upon this acc & https://x.com/i/status/2079515511847875046 sirotannn 🥹 they even post some plushie photos too !! https://x.com/i/status/2069688190274072598 https://x.com/i/status/2073323633750237582 us ♪

https://x.com/i/status/2079626552392708595 omg waaaaa i mentioned having a sylvanian families collection before right ! ! the bunny on the first img was my very first one^_^ her name was chocolate :]

checking in ^_^ i'll be here waiting for you 🩷🫂 I hope things are getting better on your end:' i noticed your acc is deactivated & was hoping u're doing alright. i love you soo much, keep doing what ever you need to make urself feel better thinking about u lots ^_^

yikes i have horrible timing Hello😭😭 i can’t think of the words to respond at the moment but thank you</3 it means a lot hearing you say all of that, really

wait okay so Um. i think i jinxed myself. #nevermind ! ignore that last msg about me feeling better🙃🙃fai is still away for the time being i’m Very sorry for all of that please ignore me i have no clue what’s happening☺️ have a Great day !

hello hello!! aaaa i'm so glad to know you're doing better 🥹🩷 i think writing down those things with the thought of "sending them" while not actually doing so sounds like a really nice alternative, i'm glad it helped you get some things off your chest in a way ^_^ iii actually saw the livestream announcement too.!!!! icchan and shihocchi is here to save the day :] ++ my reply to ur other msg.!!!! even though you said that it's not rlly bothering you anymore id like to say a few(?) things ^_^ it's completely understandable, i get it!!🫂🩷 it's fine if you're not ready to open up on such a deep level. I'll be here regardless, waiting until you feel comfortable enough. and even if that day may not come, it's totally alright too! you're not alone in this 🥲 i used to think the same way. it's terrifying to think that the other person's view of you may change once you Fully open up. i won't ever force you to let it all out, but know that whenever the time comes that you'll be ready, i'll be here—i'll /still/ be here. i know that these things can be hard to believe(?), but i hope that little by little, you'll feel comfortable enough to say these things. it's okay to have these "ugly" parts of you, and it's okay to let all the years of bottled up raw feelings out. i hope you won't have to feel the need to hide them away just to seem "more bearable." it's very kind of you to still be so considerate of me despite /your/ problems. but know that you are more than deserving as well to have someone to run to whenever things get bad, no matter how often or intense they may be. you're one of the kindest & sweetest people I've ever known, and i don't think anything could ever outweigh that—not the ugly parts, not the horrible thoughts, not the things you're too scared to let out, never. you're more than So deserving to feel secure enough to let these things show & not fear of the other person flinching. i'll love you either way, and slowly, little by little, may you feel safe enough to fully accept that. 🦦🩷 (& knowing my bday msgs for you helped you cheer up somehow makes me so happy to know ☹️🩷 even if it's a little, im glad i'm able to help you in one way or another.) ++ the party hat oj my goshshjfsh 😭☹️🩷🩷 ruricchi in about three months from now. that is me. 🎂!!!!!!!!

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